As Father's day is approaching, I can't but think about my dad, about how difficult it is to celebrate this day without him. I also think about the other daughters and sons that will go through the same situation. This will be the 3rd Father's day his body is no longer with me and my family in Earth but his soul still is.
Last year I had a very interesting experience on Father's day, which made me think he was around. I was on a cruise on the Mediterranean. I rented internet for a few minutes to log into Facebook and wish my brother and friends who are dads a happy day. I also posted this note for my dad on my wall: "Daddy I hope you are having a great day in Heaven!! Happy Father's Day. I love you today and always." (Papito espero que estes pasando un feliz dia en el cielo!! Feliz dia del padre!! Te amo hoy y siempre.)
Right after I finished writing it, the Latin band started playing a Pasodoble. It made me remember my dad even more! He didn't take dancing very seriously, but when it came to Pasodoble, he was passionate about it! He taught me how to dance it. If we were in a party together I always dance pasodoble with him. As a matter of fact that was our last dance in May 2009 at my niece's communion party. As soon as I listened to this music play my eyes filled up with tears. Then like this was not enough to bring memories of him, the next song the band played was "Cielito Lindo" the song my dad used to sing to me... and in the lyrics I want to believe he was sending me also a message: "sing and don't cry" (Canta y no llores)! He didn't want me to cry. He wanted me to be happy, to sing and enjoy my vacation! He wanted to let me know he got my Happy Father's day note! I'll make sure I send him another this and every Father's day until the day I leave this body and go back to the source and I am able to dance with him again.
As I go through another Father's day without my dad, I have to be thankful for the years I shared with him. I have to remember that he is now an angel looking out for me, my sister and my brother; my mom, the love of his life; his grandchildren, even the one he never got to meet. His energy is around all of us. The energy never dies it only transforms. A part of him is in our cells. His soul is now one with each of us. He can be with all of us, in different places at the same time.
Blessings to all who walk in similar shoes, I want you to know that you will be in my thoughts. Celebrate your dad's lives and still wish them a Happy Father's day. His soul might be there celebrating with you too, happy and proud of having a daughter or a son like you.
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